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The Holiday Blues

 This time of year has always been hard for me.  For many years in a row around Thanksgiving and Christmas I had lost my job thus making the holidays a time of fear, panic, depression, and stress.  For the past 6 years I have had a steady job and it seemed like things were getting more stable and that has allowed me to not have those fears and stresses.  3 years ago I met my wife in June and she is a huge fan of Christmas.  So much so if she could keep her decorations up all year she would.  Unfortunately on Christmas Eve that year her Grandmother passed away.  That did nothing to dim her love of the holiday and I admire that.  The past 2 years Christmas has been good.  This year I decided to jump in and try to really enjoy the holiday.  I helped put up the decorations, bought gifts for people and have generally been ok with watching all of the Hallmark movies that run 24/7.  Last Fri I found out my Gma was rushed to the hospital with a blocked vessel in her heart.  My heart immediatel
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I hope this helps

 So I have a few blogs for things in my life.  One is for music and the other is for politics.  The one blog I had for a long time which I deleted just last year was following my battle with chronic depression.  When I deleted it my life had really gotten to a point I wasn't posting regularly enough to warrant keeping it.  I am not exactly sure what this blog will turn out to be but I wanted a place to share my personal struggles with depression, acceptance, and all other parts of myself that people around me rarely see.  In the end I hope to not only be able to chronical my own struggles but maybe create a small community of people dealing with similar issues and provide a place for supportive comments to help all of us. For this first post I wanted to let you all know my back story and how I ended up here.  Growing up I had a very difficult time making friends and my circle was always small.  In high school I was very charismatic and "knew" a lot of people and a lot of
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